It's May...

It's May and something about my life right now feels funny.

I've been feeling restless and unsettled.

My credit card statement shows that I have suddenly become a connoiseur of fun summery dresses- buying them like its my job.

Lots of fun things have been happening and I'm enjoying life with some good new friends.

And yet still, its May and something about my life feels funny.

You see, for the first time in about 7 years- since I first left for college, its May and I'm not moving.

For the past 6 May's I've been packing and unpacking, in and out of dorms, churches, homes, cities, counties and states. I knew this day would come- but I never knew how funny it would feel when it all hit me- I'm not longer a transient. I have a home.

Ever the student of wanderlust and sucking the marrow out of life I have had some crazy and amazing adventures in my short adult life. I have lived in some awesome and WEIRD places and I have loved my life. But a year ago I made a decision to find home. to get involved in my community. to stop running and start investing.

And now its May and I'm not moving and something about my life feels funny.

For the first time in 7 years I'm not going to take a 3-month break from the people and events of my life. This is about the time of year where, in the past, I've told my friends that I'll still have my phone! We'll keep in touch- and then proceed to more or less fall off the face of the earth until August sometime. I'd take a break from reality and try another one on for size. I'd make some more new friends and get to use my same lame jokes on new people who haven't heard them 1000000000 times already.

And now its May and I'm not moving and I'm learning that the something that feels funny about my life is that this consistency- this lack of transiency, this bit of a beginning glimmer of home turns out to be harder than I thought it would be. I'm used to my running and my breaks and my time away to figure things out. Staying put and battling through is not so easy.

But, being that its May and I'm not moving and I've started to understand this funny feeling I've decided to embrace it. To embrace life as I know it now and to see the grand adventure that is building a life and a home.

Here's to May and finally not moving...